July in a Nutshell

It's the last day of the month. And since I have a few minutes to kill while my PSP is loading up with games, why not talk about my entire month in 3 paragraphs? One paragraph for each part of the month: Beginning, Middle, and End. So here I go..

Beginning. The beginning of the month saw the birthday of Florabel's niece, Chloe. She is now a year old. It also saw the upgrading of my beloved PSP,which cost me 250 pesos. I also found out things I still wish I didn't know. Life sucks that way, but hey, whatever.

Middle. The middle of the month was when I discovered the powers of Cali. It's non-alcoholic, but it's all I can drink. Am I really as pathetic as Dave claims I am? I hope not. Anyway, around the middle of the month was when I first came and saw Manila. By that I mean, it was my first time in SM Manila and Carriedo. So yeah. I'm pretty happy because I got to spend it with SexyLove and LoveBabe.

End. The end of the month... hmm.. what can I say? I can't really complain. I think I'm finally over you-know-who. But I still can't stand the thought of them dating. It's still driving me mad. I'm still hoping they don't end up together because it will be a nightmare. But it's still their choice to make. I'm no one. They can do whatever the fuck they like. But speaking of couples, I hooked up LoveBabe with one of my friends. I hope that they become long time friends. It's only been a week, but I wanna see what else will happen in the next few weeks.

This post is boring. I know. So for consolation, Here is a Beatles track I really enjoy. Like me, I hope you guys had a good July and an even better August. Don't let the past mar your future folks!

Let's look forward to August. I just hope it brings with it better winds....

Beatlemania pa din.

I am now in love with another Beatles song. ooohh.. It's the best song right after Hey Jude. It's a song about falling in love again.

You should listen to it. It's only like 2 minutes, so it wouldn't hurt for you to try it. The song's name is "If I fell". Apart from this song, another great song of theirs which I only recently discovered, is "And I love her". Again, you should listen to it.

I have been playing nothing but Beatles tracks for the past two days. Thank you LoveBabe for introducing these songs to me. Now, reader, it is your turn to love them. Listen to these songs so you may have an appreceation for Good Music. Adam Levine has nothing on Paul McCartney or John Lennon. NOTHING!!!!

If I fell - The Beatles

 

   

And here is is the song I am listening to right now: 

      And I Love Her - The Beatles

Happy Listening! :)

Beatlemania!

Mula kaninang umaga pa on repeat sa youtube ang kantang to ng Beatles. Beatlemania ako dito sa bahay ngayong araw. I am in love with Paul McCartney's voice. Fan girl siguro ako ng grupo kung buhay na ako nung 60's. Haayy...

Anyway, For those of you who don't know the beatles, I pity you. Enjoy this song of theirs. :)

Kung mahal mo buhay mo, pakinggan mo tong kantang to. Next to Hey Jude, eto ang paborito ko. oh, I can't wait to make kopya kay LoveBabe ng mga kanta nila. :3

Cheers! :D

His POV

Mga tao dumadaan. Nagtitinginan. Mga mukang tila asar, galit sa nakikita nila. Wala naman masama ah? Kayakap ko lang girlfriend ko. Lumuluha siya.

Wala talaga ako kwenta. Lumuluha siya sa balikat ko, habang ako nakatingin sayo. Hinigpitan ko ang yakap ko, habang dinadasal na nagseselos ka sa nakikita mo. Na nais mo ko bumalik…. Pero kita ko sa mata mo, na wala kang paki. Na ayaw mo na sakin. Na basura lang ako.

Dumating boyfriend mo. Hinalikan ka niya. Naramdaman ko ang selos. Umalis na kayo, hawak kamay. Muka kang masaya. Pinikit ko mata ko. Binulong ko sa kasintahan ko na wag niya ko iwan. Dahil sadyang mahal ko siya. Bumulong din siya na mahal niya ako. Na wala na siyang balak maghanap pa ng iba.

Alam mo kung ano nakakatawa? Yan din mismo sinabi ng aking nakaraan. Pero tignan mo ngayon, sumama sa iba. Kailan mo rin kaya ako iiwan? Handa na ako masaktan muli. Lagi naman ganito eh. Pero hangang sa araw na muli ako masaktan, mamahalin kita. Andito lang ako, hanggang pagsawaan mo….

Her POV

Hindi kita kagad nakita. nakatayo ka sa may fountain. Mukang may inaantay. medyo humaba na buhok mo. Pero Mata mong maamo, balat mong kayumanggi..Hindi ka pa din nagbago. muka kang nagaalala.... Inaantay mo ba siya? Siguro nga...

Ano ba nangyare sa atin? Oo, aaminin ko. ako may kasalanan. Hindi ako dapat sayo. Hindi ako bagay sayo. masama akong tao. Kasusuklaman mo ko pag nalaman mo ang totoo. Mas mabuti pang ganito. Masakit ba para sayo? Sa akin din. Pero gagaling din tayo. Tiwala lang....

Dumating girlfriend mo. Nakita kong niyakap mo siya. Mas bagay kayo. mas magiging masaya ka sa piling niya. Nakita mo ko, tapos hinigpitan mo yakap mo sakanya. Pinagseselos mo ba ako? Kasi tumatalab eh. Pero kita ko naman na nakalimutan mo na ako. Siya na ang mahal mo. Eto ba ang iniwan ko? Pinapakita mo ba sa akin? Pinapamuka mo ba sa akin na mali ako? Kasi ang sakit eh. Hindi ko to kaya....

Tumalikod ako sa inyo. Pag tinagalan ko pa kayo ng tingin, baka di ko kayanin at umiyak ako. Sakto naman dumating din ang bago ko. Hindi mo siya kasing galing magmahal. Sa totoo lang, hinahanap pa din ng balat ko ang yakap mo. Hinahanap pa din ng labi ko ang halik mo. Hinahanap din ng mata ko ang ngiti mong nakakaalis ng pagod at sama ng loob.... May iba nang nagmamayari nun ngayon. Hindi na ako....

Hinalikan ako ng boyfriend ko. Walang tamis. Walang kilig. Nagaya na siya umalis. Tumango lang ako. At pagtalikod niya, tumingin uli ako sainyo. Magkayakap pa rin kayo. Ang swerte niya talaga. Sana di ka niya iwanan. Wag sana siya tumulad sakin.

Ang swerte niya dahil meron siyang ikaw. Ang swerte niya meron siyang pagmamahal mo. Alagaan ka niya sana at wag ka saktan. Paalam na. Paalam na sa atin....

Writer Blues....

Bilang isang manunulat, syempre naranasan ko na din ang writer's block. Yung tipong, gustong gusto mo magsulat ng something worth reading, ang kaso eh, tila babaeng pakipot ang mga ideyang magaganda. Kung kailan mo inaakit na sagutin ka, eh ayaw mga magsilapit. halos matae ka na sa kakaisip, wala. Hindi pa rin darating ang  magandang idea.

Tapos kapag ikaw ay pagod na at nagnanais nang matulog nang mahimbing sa kama, BOOM! bigla siyang gagapang sa isipan mo at magsasasayaw, magiingay at hindi ka hahayaan na matulog ka. Pilit nitong nanakawin ang atensyon mo. Pilit tong magpapapansin sayo hanggang sa ikaw ay wala nang magawa kundi bumangon at ilagay ito sa papel o sa blog mo. Nakakabadtrip.

Sa kasamaang palad, eh ako ang tipong ma-pride, ika nga. Oo, napapansin ko ang ideya na nagpapapansin sakin habang sinusubukan kong matulog. Tulad kaninang tanghale. May dumating sakin na magandang ideya para sa isang istorya. Ang konsepto ay Love Story. Mahina ako gumawa ng love story. Paano ako gagawa ng love story kung ako mismo ay sawi? psh.

Anyway, hindi ako tinantanan nung konsepto ko na nabuntis si girl at nakikipagbreak kay guy. si guy hindi maintindihan kung bakit gusto makipagbreak. Tapos magkakaflashback sa kung ano ang mga nangyare. balak ko ay gawin ang storya mula sa POV ni Guy at girl. Tipong parang sa She's Dating the Gangster. Ayun.

Eh kaso, tinatamad ako bumangon kanina. So hindi ko siya nasulat. Hindi na din ako natulog. Umalis na lang ako papunta Cubao. Naglipas ng oras. Olats talaga ako. yan tuloy, may sakit nanaman ako ngayon. Psh. Ginusto ko to eh. Panindigan!

Ayun, medyo nakalimutan ko na kung paano ko isusulat yung kwento. Pero habang asa Cubao kanina, naisipan ko na eh. Kaso nakalimutan ko. Di bale. babalik din yun. sana.

Ang ideya ay parang pakipot na babae. Epal siya at mali ang timing dumating sa buhay ko.

Ang hirap magmahal noh. lalo na kung isa kang Jorge na hindi basta basta bumibitaw. Ano nga ba ang natutunan ko mula sa istaytment na ito?

Eto lang: Wag makipaglaro ng rubber band sa isang tarantado. Lalo na kung wala kang balak mag gamot ng sugat.

Lumalanding Kabataan

"Bagay kayo..." "Hindi ah. mas bagay kayo..." Eto ang conversation na narinig ko mula sa grupo ng mga elementary school students habang naglalakad ako pauwi dito sa Quezon City.

Nakakatawa isipin, kasi kakatapos ko lang mapanuod ang episode ng Word of the Lourd na "Lumalanding Kabataan" nung gabi lamang. Panuorin mo ang episode na to ng ikaw ay may matutunan tungkol sa ating lipunan kahit onti.

*iaasume ko na napanuod mo.* Ngayon, base sa napanood mo, Lumalandi na nga ba ang kabataan? Bumabata na ang mga nagkaka girlfriend at boyfriend. Dumadami na din ang mga nabubuntis na teenager.

karamihan sa mga nag premarital sex ay hindi gumagamit ng condom. kapag nagpatuloy ng ganito ang kabataan ay darating ang araw na ang Pilipinas ay ang may mga pinaka batang lolo't lola. Dapat nga naman eh gabayan sila ng magulang nila ngayon pa lang. Lalo na ang mga teenager. Paano pa malalaman ng kabataan kung ano ang tama kung ang nakikita nila sa magulang nila ay puro kamalian?

Para sa mga kabataan, wag magpadalos dalos. Uso mag antay. Sabi nga di ba, True Love waits. Kung Talagang nagiinit ang katawan mo para sa ganong klaseng aksyon, eh andyan naman ang YouPorn. Pero joke lang yun. Maghanap ka ng hobby. Sumali ka sa Org sa eskwela niyo. Magpakasaya ka at enjoyin mo ang pagkabata. Dahil hindi mo na ito maibabalik.

At para naman sa mga magulang, tulad nga ng sabi ni Lourd De Veyra sa video, anong klase kang magulang kung mas naiimpluwensyahan ng internet and inyong mga anak.

Epic Blog is Epic

When I logged into my tumblr, I noticed an increase in my followers. So went to check out who my new followers were. Among them, I found this guy. I don't know if he's crazy or what. But I find him hilarious.

He doesn't post much, in fact, his last post was about a month ago. But still, he wants to follow as many people from tumblr as humanly possible just to see how many will follow back. I don't always follow back, but when I do, I either: Like your blog, or you amuse me. This guy amuses me so I followed him back.

his blog might not be worth reading, but hey He wants to prove something and I'm here to help him.

cheers to you, follow-all-the-blogz! :D

Sinuswerte ako

Alam mo yung nilalagnat ka, tapos Nag aalinlangan ka dahil ayaw mo mahuli sa Math class mo, tapos sa araw na absent ka, eh wala din prof mo sa Math? Eto yun eh. And yeah, Ang Swerte ko lang!

Kaya eto ako ngayon. Kesa asa school, nasa harap ng PC. Actually, kanina pa ako dito umaga. Dahil maganda na pakiramdam ko at wala na akong lagnat, nagpasya akong gawin ang mga homework ko para bukas.

Ayun, tapos ko na mga takdain ko para bukas. yehay! pwede na ako magcelebrate. yehay!  Papaprint na lang ako bukas. Yehay!

Eh ikaw, kamusta araw mo?

One of the Boys

Mula Grade School lagi na lang ako One of the Boys. Tipong nung grade one ako, kinausap ng teacher ko si ina dahil nga hindi daw ako nakikihalubilo sa girls. I can't help it kung di nila trip ang trip ko! err...

Pero syempre, nanaisin mo din na mapansin ka ng boys hindi bilang isa din lalaki, kundi isang babae. Why do you think na medyo nagaayos na ako? I don't wanna be one of the boys forever. Masaya yun. pero mas masaya maging babae.... ata? Joke lang. Ayoko nga. I hate getting that monthly visitor every month. :/

Anyway, Ayoko na maging one of his boys. Nakakasawa na eh.

so, like, make panuod na lang the video kasi It kinda describes my life, you know, di ba?

Cheers!

Pinaguusapan diyan ang ex ni pinsan na isang baseball player ng AdU.

lagi lumalapit ang ex ni pinsan kapag may problema siya sa buhay pag ibig. Wala ako alam sa buhay pag ibig, so ang tanong ko ay... Normal ba to?

Masipag Ako eh.

Dalawang Linggo ako hindi pumasok sa work. Bakit? Kasi tinatamad ako. hehe. Ang ganda ng dahilan ko noh?

Pero naguguilty naman ako. Sobrang undermanned pala sila ngayon, tapos hindi ako pumapasok. tsss... Ang sama ko talaga. At dahil sa masama ako, papasok na kao bukas. NO EXCUSES. at mag oovertime ako. I swear, babawi ako ng oras! I owe it to Ms. Cha and to the cats and dogs at the shelter. psh. Siguro pasok ako ng 10 at mag out ako ng 3pm. Tutal wala naman kami homework para sa Thursday eh. Kaya na yun!

Ayun, Gusto ko lang magpost dahil sobrang guilty talaga ako. huhuhuhu.... I shall redeem myself!

Wag mo na to basahin. Wala tong kwenta

"...pero mahal kita, wala nang hahanapin pang iba. Handa ko magtiis, kahit na away away away na to...." Eto yung kinakanta ni Angge sa Tom's World Kanina. Parang kanina lang ule ako lumabas kasama mga kaibigan ko.

Si Ariane kasama din kanina, pero pagdating ng pogi niyang kaibigan ay umalis din. Ako at si Harold nakaupo sa sahig ng Karaoke room, siya nagseselpon. fb sa nakita ko. Si Jenina asa labas naghahanap ng kanta. si Angge, tuloy sa pagbirit. Eh ako? hawak ang cellphone, inaantay magtext si SexyLove.

Nagtext na siya kanina, sabi niya on the way na daw siya. Edi sige. antay naman ako. Pagkatapos ng kinakanta ni Angge, sakto pagtayo ko, asa labas siya. napangiti ako at lumabas. Bago ako makabati, niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit, so gumanti ako. Pero after a while, aba! hindi pa bumibitaw! Syempre, ramdam ko kagad na may something wrong. Edi niyakap ko siya, sabay bulong, "ano meron?" naramdaman ko pag iling niya.

Nang humiwalay na siya, nakita kong umiiyak na siya. Niyakap ko tuloy ule. "Oh, bakit ka umiiyak? May nangyare ba? Ayos ka lang ba?" bulong ko ule saknya. uli, umiiling siya. Napatingin ako sa Karaoke booth. Nakita ko mga kasama ko nakasilip sila, at tila nahihiya lumabas dahil sa sitwasyon namin.

Nang muli siya bumitaw, tinignan ko siya. Ngumiti siya at sinabing wala daw. Naiiyak lang daw siya. Nang sinabi niya yun, pinuntahan ko na mga kaibigan ko at sinabing okay na at pwede na silang lumabas.

nagpaalam kami sakanila, at naupo kami sa foodcourt. Ayaw magkwento ni SexyLove. Edi hinayaan ko na lang. Nag Cali na lang kami at chichirya habang inaantay namin si LoveBabe magtext. naintindihan ko na pagiyak ni SL. Stressed siya. ang demanding ng course niya. Andami gusto mangyare ng mga prof nila. At the breaking point na siya. Wala ako magawa para saknya.

Edi hinayaan ko na lang siya maglabas ng sama ng loob habang umiinom siya ng Cali. tsktsk. hirap niya pangitiin. Kung anuanong joke na sinasabi ko, wala pa din. Then, nung mag give na ako dapat, nilabas ko PSP ko. Aba! Angry Birds lang pala katapat.

Wala lang. Natuwa lang ako at nakita ko na siyang ngumingiti at tumatawa. Adik nga pala siya sa Angry Birds. How could I forget? Ayun. Masaya na siya nung na meet up na namin si LoveBabe. buti naman.

Masaya ako at napangiti ko siya kahit papaano. Masaya ako dahil naibsan ko ang stress niya. Oh di ba, hindi ako completely useless. Sa totoo lang, sapat na sakin yung may isang tao na ako ang hinahanap kapag kailangan nila ng kausap eh. It makes me feel like someone actually wants to talk to me. Kaya mahal ko si LoveBabe at SexyLove eh...

Wag na sana matapos ang ganitong relasyon namin. Dahil sa totoo lang, Medyo mababadtrip talaga ako pag pati ito kinuha sakin. May inagaw na nga sila sakin last year eh. Eto na lang meron ako. Wag niyo na sila kunin. please.

One Touch

You are the only person that has that kind of impact on me. You're the only one who, with one touch, make my heart beat faster, my face feel warmer and my eyes undecided on where to look.

It's been a while.... But the impact is still there. Everytime you touch me, I feel like everything is still the same. It's driving me mad. I'm okay now. But... the feel of your soft skin on mine, your very scent.... It's enough for me to get a relapse... I hate it.

I still like you, I really do. But please, don't touch me. I hate the feeling of confusion I get whenever you do it. It's nothing personal, it's just........ I'm trying my best to forget... Don't constantly remind me of how sweet it is to be touched by you. Please, This is the only favor I'm asking of you....

I'll meet you there someday. But right now, I just can't take it.... I really can't....

Cattail's Life as a Blogger

I think I've said before that I have been blogging since 2007. This is true. My very first blog was in my friendster account. Now, back then blogs weren't that popular. especially with kids my age. (i was 15.) And in friendster, the blogs there weren't really that noticeable and shit.

And my only reader back then was my mom. and a few close friends I kinda forced to do it. hahaha. But I think I only managed like 3 or 4 posts? I don't remember. That was my very first attempt at internet fame. Yes. I call it internet fame because people from all over will see what you write. cool eh?

So, I was a friendster blogger until 2008. I stopped because no one was really reading what I write. A waste of talent, in my opinion. (naks! talent!)

I went on hiatus for a year and a half, until my Freshman year in college, where I learned about tumblr. So yes, in 2010, I started my tumblr with the url eljayem14. tumblr. com. The title of my blog then was: "Life is What Happens" One of my very first followers was a Panda, then a few other college classmates. No, my high school friends didn't know about my tumblr until 2011.

My tumblr these days has a stable fan base. I get messages from mostly college kids from the University Belt in Manila. I've also made a few friends over seas through it. Yes, I am pretty happy with that blog.

I changed my url quite a few times since I started. I followed and unfollowed a few people as well. My blog name is also changed.

Above is my tumblr stat. 91 followers. 25 messages from friends I have never met. Not bad.

That's it for my tumblr. Now, if you're wondering, I started my blogger account in 2011. March to be precise. I only had ne follower until this year, in which it boomed to seven. It's a start. After all, I started with less with my tumblr.

I don't really have much comment about my blogger account, except for the fact that I'm using it more often now than I used to.

When asked which of my two blogs I preffer, I'd have to say that they're on the same ground. I can say whatever I want on both of these.

I certainly hope that my blogs will boom in popularity in the near future. Internet fame, Here comes Cattail!

Cheers!

"Sana Walang Prof"

Hindi ako magmamalinis. Isa ako sa mga estudyanteng lagi dinadasal na sana walang propesor. pero magkaiba naman kami ng sitwasyon. Sabi niya na mataas tuition nila. Well, di na ako gulat. Lahat naman ng kolehiyo mataas tuition eh. Samin lang ang mababa.

Ang dyahe nga naman sa parents mo. Ang taas ng binabayaran tapos ikaw, tamad na tamad mag aral. Hindi biro ang kolehiyo. hindi ito High School na kahit magpaka petiks ka eh papasa ka. No. Real life na ang College, VR training kuno.

Lalo na para sakin na isa nang third year college student, dapat na ako magseryoso. ilang sem na lang at lalabas na ako sa tunay na realidad. Walang prof na gagabay sa mga ginagawa ko. Boss lang na handa akong patalsikin the minute na magkamali ako. tsss..

Kaya tara na. Medyo magseryoso na tayo. It took a College Freshman to make me realize how stupid I am.

Cheers!

Ako ang Sentro ng Universe

Ngayon lang ule ako natulog na kay haba haba tulad nung bakasyon. Libre eh. Walang pasok. Ayos.

Joke lang. di siya ayos. Bakit? Kasi Wala akong baon. Ang ganda talaga ng concern ko eh noh? Ay, Gusto ko din pala pasalamatan si SexyLove dahil siya nagtext sakin na wag na pumasok kanina at suspended na daw klase sa PUP. Malas lang niya dahil naabutan siya ng suspension sa Pureza. psh.

Ayun, nung nagtext siya nakaligo na ako eh, tuloy naglaro na lang ako ng Ps2 ko. Namiss ko Playstation ko. Nilaro ko yung mga pinabili kong mga laro sa kaibigan ko sa RiverBanks. Ang Onimusha2 at Draken Gard 2. habang naglalaro, syempre katext ko si LoveBabe. Inaayos kasi namin kung kailan kami punta ng Divisoria.

Balak namin next week, pero kung maulan pa din, ipapagliban muna namin. Kailangan na kasi namin ng pera. Maliban dito, May iba pa ako concern.

Concerned ako sa lakad namin ng groupmates ko bukas. Manunuod kami ng Taekwondo Competition sa Maynila. Pero medyo nagaalinlangan ako dahil nga maulan. at baka mastranded kami sa baha or something. Mayaman isa kong groupmate eh, taxi daw kami. psh. mahirap lang ako.

At baka naman isuspend nila yung competition di ba? I mean ang hirap kaya pumunta sa maynila ng ganito. Isang malaking swimming pool ang maynila pag umuulan. Nakakabadtrip.

Sa totoo lang din, kinakabahan ako. Kinakabahan ako na paasa lang pala ako sa mga groupmates ko. Kinakabahan ako na baka bigla lang kami palayasin dun. Kinakabhan ako na baka isa akong malaking FAIL.

Wag naman sana. *Knocks on wood. Yung kaibigan ko kasi na dapat sasali din dun ay di makakapunta. Bakit? Kasi libing bukas ng schoolmate namin. Hayst. bahala na bukas!

Siguro naman di ba magiging okay ang lahat? hmmm.... Kayo na bahala Lord.

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"wala sa lahi ng mga Jorge ang nangiiwan."-- LoveBabe

kaya kung ikaw ay umibig ng isang Jorge, asahan mo, love of your life na yan. At kung sakali mang iwan ka ng Jorge, tiyak pagsisisihan mo habang buhay.

Hindi ako purong Jorge, pero gsto ko lang pagsisihan mo ang pagiwan sakin. Lalo na't minahal kita ng tunay at tapat.

Hindi man naging tayo, alam ko ramdam mo din ang pagmamahalan natin.

I just hope, na worth it ang lahat ng gnawa mo sakin.

#ViaMobile

Perstaym

Kakaiba tong araw na to. Ang dami ko firsts. No. Hindi siya yung iniisip mo. hahaha.

The day started out pretty good. We reported. I did a pretty good job if I do say so myself. After class, I accompanied my friend to SM Sta. Mesa in hopes of buying a PSP, to no avail. He ended up buying a second hand one in Marikina Riverbanks.

And whatever happened to me? After SM Sta. Mesa, we said our goodbyes, and I boarded a bus. I rode a bus for the first time on my own. I don’t know, for me it’s a bit of an achievement. I went to PNU where my LoveBabe was waiting for me. I met up with him, and we went to SM Manila. Again, It was my first time in SM Manila. It’s a bit smaller than SM Sta. Mesa, but it was okay. I was with LoveBabe and I was pretty happy. :)

I finished my lunch at the food court. I was eating it at school earlier, but since my buddy was in a bit of a rush to get to SM Sta. Mesa, I wasn’t able to finish it. LoveBabe said that we weren’t allowed to stay there unless we were eating, so we decided to go around, since it was after all, my first time in SM Manila. Toy Department. That was our favorite place. We always visit the Toy Department, in whatever Mall we go to. As usual, he was looking for a certain Hot Wheel, while I was looking at video games.

14:30. SexyLove was at the mall. We were waiting for her. She just came from Intramuros, she’s sweaty. We then got onto a jeep. We were headed for Carriedo. It was also my first time there. Yes, yes, I know. I haven’t been to see the world much. Mostly, Manila. But hey, at least I’m doing it now, right?We went there to buy a present for our aunt. An iPhone 4s hello kitty case. We eventually found one after searching for some time. And it cost us like 200.

Actually, we were supposed to go to 168. I have no idea where that is. But we didn’t, because it was already 15:30. And we all have classes tomorrow. So yeah, Maybe next time, we said.

LoveBabe was waiting for his dad. So we stayed with him until 5 at Isetann Recto. And no, it wasn’t my first time there. more like my second. So when his dad got there, We said goodbye to LoveBabe, and went home. Obviously, SexyLove and I took the Train. (TRENding ang LRT. hahaha. *okay.ignore this.*)

I was home by 17:45. Awesome. I had a pretty awesome day. Groupmate2 apologized for whatever happened last Sunday and God is beginning to answer my prayer that I forgive her. Everyone enjoyed my report, especially me. and I got to spend more time with SexyLove and LoveBabe. Plus I got to do loads of new stuff. This is a total opposite of my Monday, which is totally Awesome!

I guess life isn’t so bad. Especially after so many bad days, you get to have an amazing day like today. I’m gonna be a bit more optimistic and start the day with a smile on this tired old face.

I hope you guys do the same. Life’s crappy. But it’s the way you look at it that matters. So for those thinking that life’s full of shit, you’re right, it is. But that doesn’t mean you can’t scoop up the shit and turn it into compost to make better growing flowers. Remember, even crap can be useful.

Let’s just try to be happy. Even if it is Easier said than done.

Cheers! :D

Usap

Nagtxt siya. Usap daw kami. Kakaibang pampagcng.

Nagcng ako dahil sa kaba. What could we possibly talk about? Ang totoo niyan, sobrang takot ako sa kung ano ang lalabas sa bibig niya. Feeling ko kasi panibagong heartbreak nanaman to para sakin eh. Wew!

Lord, ikaw na bahala. Pero kinakabahan talaga ako. :/

Katam

Ang aga ko nagising. Wala na ako agenda ngayong araw. Tinapos ko na kasi kagabi HW ko eh.

Ngayon, dapat punta ako work. Kaso sinusumpong ako ng katam. Hayst.

Pasok pa ba ako? I feel compelled to do so. Kaso d ako nakahngi ng pera kay ina.oh well,anjan naman si ate eh.hehe. Bahala na.

Ay,pakipaalala nga pala sakin na asikasuhin na ang aming Special Topics Powerpoint. Salamat!

Cheers readers!

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Work

Work. Meron ako niyan bukas. psshh.. Ang totoo niyan, tinatamad ako ule umalis bukas. Pero nagskip na ako last week. Kailangan ko pumunta bukas, kundi lagot ako. hahaha.

Okay lang naman ang work eh, sana nga lang may bayad para medyo mas sinisipag ako pumunta dun at makihalubilo sa mga tao. For some reason, mahiyain ako pag sila na kaharap ko eh. leche. Andun pa namn si Vince na pogi. Si Vince na may billboard sa EDSA. Si Vince na nahihiya ako kausapin kasi ang gwapo niya. Haaay...

Three months na ako nagwowork, Three months na, at wala pa din ako kaibigan dun. Ako na loser. Pero sakto lang. Once a week lang din naman ako pumunta dun eh. Iilan lang din ang tao na makikita ko dun.

Required ako bumawi ng dalawang oras bukas. So Required ako mag four hour shift bukas. kaso, tinatamad ako eh. Magquit na kaya ako? hmmm... Bahala na.

Ay, yung tungkol dun sa pagbebenta ng hotwheels.... Magaaksaya ako ng 500 para dun. Tuloy kami. Bibili na kami ng stock sa Divisoria in a few weeks. Ayos. Siguro, pag naging ayos to, baka iquit ko na yung isa kong job. Kaso naka kontrata ako for six months. at nangangalahati na ako. Tapusin ko na lang kaya? hmm.. Ulit, bahala na.

Ang tumal ng gabing to.

Cheers Readers!

Masama ang Timpla

Hindi kape ang tinutukoy ko. Hindi din Iced Tea. Araw ko ang masama ang timpla. Kanina ko lang ule naranasan ang mabadtrip ng sobra sobra. pssshhh...

Tara, inom tayo ng Cali at kkwentuhan kita. Sensya na. Hanggang Cali lang ako. Pero pwede na yan. hehe. Eto na. magsisimula na ako:

Sisimulan ko kahapon ng tanghale. Nagtxt si leader. sino daw pwede gumawa ng powerpoint para sa Sports Journ report namin. ako: "siguro naman may iba nang sasalo niyan. Ako na gagawa para sa Special Topics eh." Lumipas ang araw.

9:20 PM. Nag online ako. Nagwallpost si groupmate1: "Pwede ba ikaw na gumawa nung sinasabi ni leader na powerpoint?" Ako: sige. ano ba gagawin dun? Groupmate1: tanungin mo si groupmate2. etc...etc.....

nagmessage ako kay groupmate2: paano ba gagawin dun sa Sports Journ? nakakabadtrip na reply ni groupmate2: wow ah. kanina pa yung text ngayon lang nagtanong. si groupmate1 na lang ata ang gagawa.
ako: ako na daw. siya na daw magsearch. di ko naman alam na walang gumawa eh. sorry naman!
groupmate2: so iaasa nyo lang na "ah may gagawa na nyan" ganun. salamat ah. nakakahiya naman sainyo. paguwi ko kase wala pong internet kay sinabi ko kay ariane kaya kay groupmate1 pinagawa sorry naabala kayo. basahin mo nalang yung comment ko sa wallpost kay groupmate1 okay. salamat sa paggawa ng powerpoint.

pucha. sa reply niyan yan... tangina...... sobra ako nabadtrip. Kagabi ko lang ule naranasan ang pagkabadtrip ng husto! tangina, sinimulan niya eh. Ang ending, ako pa din gumawa ng powerpoint namin. Nagtext si groupmate2. tangina, nagsosorry dahil ang taray daw niya, etc.. etc...

mas lalo ako nagalit. pucha! Ang ayos ayos ng pagtanong ko, gagaguhin mo ko ng ganon, tapos ineexpect mo na magiging cool lang sakin lahat yun? Pota, mabait ako, pero sana naman di ba hindi ka ganyan? Ang bait bait ko sayong kaibigan, tapos ganyan. ayos ka ah.

Puyat ako. 3am na ako nakatulog dahil sa lintyak na powerpoint na yan. tapos, potangina, HINDI DIN NAGREPORT! Sumobra na pagkabadtrip ko kanina. Sa sobrang badtrip, natatawa na lang ako.

Hindi ko pinansin si Groupmate2 buong araw. badtrip ako sakanya. Kahit sabihin niya nagsorry siya, parang wala din eh. Naiinis ako sa ugali niyang yun. Hay nako.

Dahil sakanya ang sama ng timpla ng araw ko eh. tangina lang talaga. Ang totoo niyan, hindi lang ito nagpasama ng timpla ng araw ko eh. Madami pa. At dahil hindi pa ubos ang Cali ko, sige, itutuloy ko.

before class, si leader, inutusan kami ni Groupmate1 na bumili ng dyaryo dahil kailangan daw. kaya ayun, lakad kami papunta CEA. walang bilihan ng Dyaryo. Lakad kami Pureza. wala pa din. Nakahanap na kami, malapit na sa kanto. Pagkabili namin, nag aya na si Groupmate1 na magtricycle dahil nakasalubong na namin si prof papuntang College namin.

Edi trike naman kami. nakamput! HINDI UMIKOT SA COLLEGE NAMIN!  dahil sa ginagawa ang daan, ang layo ng inikutan ng trike. nagpababa na lang tuloy kami sa may simbahan. at NAGLAKAD KAMI. pucha, ganon din. dapat naglakad na lang kami. di pa sayang ang siyete.

Oras ng klase. may nagreport. nagpakita ng video ng finals ng V-League. mga huling sandali na yun. Ayos. After nun, pinagawan ng kwento. nag init ulo ko lalo. leche. Bara bara tuloy ginawa kong article. pft! Pwede na yun.

haay.. pahamak ang Sports Journ. pero steady lang. Kailangan yan sa buhay natin eh. Pero swear, etong araw na to ang PINAKA NAKAKABADTRIP na araw ko so far. Nabbwisit pa din ako pag naaalala ko si Groupmate2. bahala siya. naiinis ako sa ugali niya.

kakalma din ako. Ako pa? Haay... Sige na nga. hanggang dito na muna. nakapagvent na ako ng ayos eh. Tska, ubos na din ang Cali ko. Pampaalis BV din. hehe.

Cheers!

Ano bibilhin mo sa una mong sweldo?

Pag nagsama sama ang barkada, at naubusan na ng conversation topics, Eto lagi ang bigla nilang itatanong sayo. “Ano bibilhin mo sa una mong sweldo?”

Syempre, lagi ka dapat may sagot dyan. Meron iba ang sagot eh “Ewan”, Yung iba naman “bibilhan ko ng something nice ang sarili ko. Syempre unang sweldo eh, akin muna yun!” at yung mga less selfish: “ibibigay ko sa parents ko. Pandagdag gastos sa bahay.”

Syempre, kanya kanyang pera, kanya kanyang diskarte yan. Eh ako? Ano nga ba plano ko sa una kong paycheck? Kung tinanong mo ko nung high school, siguro sinagot ko eh, pang  tulong kina ina at ama. Pero nang tumanda ako, medyo naging selfish din. Hindi mo maiiwasan yun.

Kolehiyo. tinatanong ule sakin yan. Ang sagot ko naman ay: “ipapaupgrade ko ang pc namin.” “Bibili ako ng bagong playstation.” “bibili ako ng Video games pang ps2!” “bibili ako ng ganito… ganyan…” Kitams? napaka selfish! tsss…. pero never ko sinabi na gusto ko bumili ng bagong selpon. ewan. Never lang talaga ako nahilig sa mga bagong modelo ng selpon. Bilis din kasi malaos eh.

pero dati yan. Ngayon, pag tinanong mo ko, may bago na akong sagot. “Ano bibilhin mo sa una mong sweldo?” “ako? papacheck up ako ng mata, at bibili ng bagong salamin.”

bakit kamo? Napaisip kasi ako. Ano nga ba ang pinaka may sense na gastusan ng una mong kita? Napagtanto ko na salamin ang best option. Dahil sa aking buhay trabahador, importante na tumayo ako sa sarili kong paa at makita ang mundo as it is. Eh paano ko makikita ang mundo kung malabo paningin ko?
Mula pagkabata ko eh si ina ang nagbabayad sa optometrist para sa yearly eye check up ko. Oo. kailangan yan.

Never ako nakamiss ng yearly eye check up ko every February.
So ayun, magpapacheck up ako. Bibili ako ng bagong salamin. gagawin ko tong simbolo ng aking independence. Ipapakita ko na kaya ko na harapin ang mundo ng magisa. na maliwanag ang lahat sakin.. etc. etc…

Ayos di ba? Mas may sense kesa video games, which, hindi ko na malalaro pagdating ng araw dahil magiging Working Class Hero na ako. (ang lungkot na ang saya isipin. hehe)
Kaya ayun. Ngayon alam niyo na kung ano gagawin ko sa una kong sweldo.

 Eh ikaw, ano bibilhin mo sa una mong sweldo?

Cyber Bullying

Until recently, I never believed that there were actual people sending hate to other members of tumblr. I mean, yeah, sure I've heard of cyber bullying, but like the lochness monster, I never really thought it existed... Until today.

While spending time on tumblr, one of the blogs I was following was getting some serious hate, and I mean, serious. Check this:

Telling someone to kill themself. That's pretty fucked up. And what's even crazier is that this guy, whoever he is, is posting all these messages as an anon. he hasn't the guts to say all of these things with his real name. This guy deserves to go to hell.

God hates you... there are days when even I feel this. But to hear it from someone else is..... it's just..... I can't even describe it... I can't put to words what the person being told this must feel....

Hate. This is one of the reasons Kids kill themselves. No one has the right to tell others to die. This is just so wrong.... i wanted to help, but what can I do? send a TA saying: "hey, I see that you're having anon trouble, no worries though, it'll be okay." That's pathetic! My words will have no effect, no matter how sincere I may be. Plus, the girl receiving all this, she's already suicidal to begin with. Give her loads of this shit, and it'll drive her over the edge. I pray for her safety. and i pray for the bastard sending her hate to die how pigs being slaughtered die. This isn't right.

So to whoever else out there who likes to send hate, STOP IT! How would you like it if it was you getting all the serious hate?! Everyone has a right to live in this world, even if they don't want to do it. Just fuck off. That's all I'm saying. Don't spread hate. It's already everywhere like a disease. Spread love instead. It's like fresh air, hard to come by.

I pray for all your souls. I just wish someone out there is praying for me too...

She's got the right idea. :)

That Moment When You Feel Betrayed

I'm pretty much open to my friends. They know stuff about me, depending on how close we are. I'm pretty easy to get along with. you know how it is.

But lately, I've been bothered by something. It's like this, I have this friend right? and our level of closeness kinda deteriorated since the start of the year for reasons unknown to me. And lately, I can definitely feel something's up with her and one of my guy friends. I'm not stupid, nor am i blind. I can see something's up. I confronted her, but she said it was nothing I needed to know.

I don't know, I just feel like I need to know. My other friends seem to know what's going on. They all know except for me. Some friend... pft! Can I seriously call someone a friend when they don't even trust you enough to tell them what the fuck is going on? I mean, seriously. I tell you what's going on in my life, and am I not deserving to know stuff? You tell our other friends and you leave me in the dark? Like, What the fuck dude? Just, What.the.fuck.

I honestly feel a little betrayed. But of course, I'm not gonna say anything or show anything to her. After all, she doesn't care, so why should I? Dev and Ark are right. People are like the moon. You don't really see the real them.

You become true to someone only to end up getting bashed. It ain't fun. I'll tell you  that much. You probably don't know who the hell I'm talking about. I'm just venting everything here. I need to calm down. I have stuff to do for tomorrow. I don't need this. I really don't. so Please. Just fuck off....

guilty pleasure

Being called a jejemon. To most this is a social insult far beyond anything else. How are jejemons identified? they are identified by their manner of clothing: Over sized shirts and shorts,"gangster" haircuts, caps lightly placed on their heads. There's always the jejecap. But ever since people started the jejemon are stupid trend, I have been seeing it less. Now all I see are baseball caps with the shiny stickers still on them. Another way to identify them is through the music they listen to. They listen mainly to pinoy rap. Or atleast, that's what the stereo type is.

Now, I'm not here to say that I like jejemons. I don't like them, nor do I dislike them. I just choose to ignore their existence until the universe decides to force me to talk to them. On the other hand, I am fascinated by their music. Pinoy rap. yes.

I like those raps they play on jeepneys on my way home. The "patok" jeepneys are always a fun ride home. not only are they fast, they also boast a large collection of pinoy rap. So anyway, whenever I hear a song there I like, I try to search for it online as soon as I get home. This is one of my favorites:

 

Bintana- Repablikan

 

and here's another one. I am personally trying to memorize this so I can rap it myself.

 

Sana -gagong Rapper

So yeah, I listen to rap. My friends don't seem to mind me doing so, but I still think that it's a guilty pleasure. Because I don't look like I'm into rap. I'm breaking the stereo typing right here. anyone can like rap. Even a nineteen year old College kid. so yeah, I'm a little embarrassed to admit it, but I don't care. I just wanted to share to you my strange taste in music. :P

Center of the Universe

For the umpteenth time, I have changed the name of my blog. This time, I chose "Center of the Unverse" as my title. Why? Because of reasons... duh.

Anyway, I think it's an appropriate title. I do think that I'm the center of the universe. Don't roll your eyes at me! I know you feel the same way. Everyone thinks they're the center of the universe one way or another. Whether we choose to accept it or not. Well, I am now open to the fact that I am a bit self centered.

Honestly though, I got this idea from my favorite comic book, Life in Progress by Julius Villanueva. The protagonist, Zeke is a nineteen year old socially inept college student, who believes he is the center of the universe, or so the story goes... Zeke is a loser, in his life, but with his friends, he gets by. He's a pretty geeky guy too, because he collects comic books, action figures and other toys.

So yeah, I have to say that Zeke made me realize I'm the center of MY universe. And that I should do what I like, and just try and ignore the people who seem to really dislike me.

You should totally read Life in Progress. here's the link to Mr. Villanueva's blog. he hasn't updated in a while, but you should still check out his other comic strips. They're pretty funny. In my opinion anyway. Most just find them corny. tsss...

Here's one of their comic strips I got from their fb page:

This is one is my favorite. Hits a bit close to home, don't you think? haha.

There are more on their fb page. But I still recommend that you buy their comic books. I have books 1 to 3. Boof 4 I think hasn't been released yet, and there's a special edition: Volume Zero which Mr. Villanueva released last year. ooohh.. I want it.

So anyway, happy reading! And I am still the Center of the Universe

 (DISCLAIMER: I own none of these photos. All credit goes to Mr. Julius Villanueva)

It's All About The Money

With my on going PSP restoration, money is always important. Especially now because I need to get parts repaired. I'm making do with my lunch money which is only 100 pesos per day.

It's a slow process though. I'm looking for ways to make more money. Last summer, I considered tutoring kids in english for 50 pesos per hour. But then I remembered that I don't like kids.

and last week, my friend was recruiting me for this networking business. I'm a bit skeptical. The money's good. He guarantees it because his brother was living proof. But I'm still not convinced and I'm not exactly sure if it's the kind of investment I want. It's a gamble. But then again, Life is a gamble.

And just today, my cousin opened up a business proposal. He plans to buy Hot Wheels and sell them online. It sounds okay to me because I'll be close to two things I like: my cousin and toys. and I'll be learning a lot about Hot Wheels in the process.

Hot Wheels, by the way, is NOT just a toy. It's a serious business. Those things, sold to the proper buyer, can cost up to at least 220 pesos. The rare ones even more expensive. One of their more expensive models is the FJ-40 Land Cruiser which my cousin is after. They're hard to find. Believe me. I've tried.

I've actually driven one of these. They are awesome. And yes, it was a Radio Controlled Car. :)

My cousin is looking for a Tomica FJ-40. They are even harder to find.

Anyway, he proposed that we buy Hot Wheels from Divisoria where they sell for as low as 70 and 100+ for the rare ones. He asked that we give 500 each so that we'll have a thousand as start up, and just go from there.

For now, it's just a proposal. And he's still thinking it over, because as he said, it's a Gamble. And I told him, "He who dares, wins". I don't know. I would like to go through with it. I've always wanted to sell stuff on the internet. And this could be a good opportunity. I'm gonna go and try to convince my cousin to go through with it. Like I said, Life's a Gamble. You're never gonna know what's gonna happen until you do it.

Bug me, and I'll Blog You

I read that somewhere on tumblr. Credits to whoever posted that. That would look awesome on a shirt. I’d totally buy it.

Why you asked I brought that up? well, earlier this evening, as I was waiting for my order of inihaw na bangus, a guy, who looked like a loser walked up to the stall and ordered a couple of fish. It seemed they were gonna have a drinking spree. You know, the typical all nighter.

I paid no mind to them. But then he started smoking. I don’t mind smokers. I just don’t like it when they breathe out their smoke right at my face. I mean, dude! I’m right here! I ain’t invisible asshole!

So what I did was, I stared at him with the look of an annoyed person. Because he was annoying me. He had a plastic bag with him. and it contained worms! Friggin’ worms dude!!!

and I overheard him tell his gf that was for his Tarantula… Dude, I FREAKIN’ HATE SPIDERS!!!!!!!!!! ugh! This guy was annoying me the more time I spent with him and his gf. The girl wasn’t a looker too. Both looked like losers. (I don’t normally judge people like this, but they pissed me off!!) Anyway, I was desperate to go home. and I skedaddled outta there the minute I got my order. Thank GOD!
I hope I never see those too again. jeez…. They bugged me, so I blogged them.

May God have mercy upon their loser souls.

The Eyes of the Cat Lover

I've been a volunteer at PAWS for almost three months now. And I'm proud to say that I learned a bit about our furry buddies. and I also learned to appreciate the life God gave us. The people there are also great. We all come there for one reason, to help animals. Everybody has their differences, but of course we are all willing to set that aside for the sake of the animals at the shelter. Also, being a cat lover such as myself, I tend to spend a lot of time with the cats in the cattery. Not surprising, I know.

But in the last few weeks, I've been walking dogs. I'm not a big fan of dogs because of reasons from my childhood. But anyway, I walk dogs. And when I walk them, they seem so happy, so energetic, so..... friendly.

Like this one particular dog. I've made him my friend. Because he's everything I believe a dog to be. Brave and ready to take on life, yet gentle and playful. He mainly reminded me of our pet dogs here at home. This charismatic dog's name is Chance.

He has an interesting story. remember last December? Remember that typhoon down in Cagayan? Sendong was it? Chance was a survivor of that tragedy. PAWS volunteers took him and three other dogs I think, back here in Manila where they were rehabilitated. The other dogs brought from Cagayan have already been adopted. Chance is the only one left.

He's really a great dog. He's my friend. When we both get tired from walking around the PAWS grounds, we would sit out in front of the Conference Center and I would tell him my problems, and my secrets. (I know, it sounds crazy.) But mind you, dogs DO make great company. No wonder a lot of people like them.

They are also great listeners. Once after I told him some of my problems, he licked me in the face. As if to say, it's gonna be alright. He's the only dog apart from my own whom I actually hugged. I love Chance. and whoever might adopt him, will NOT regret it. Hell, if I could, I would've adopted him. But I can't because we already have like four dogs here.

Because of my bonding with Chance, i have grown to love our own dogs too. And still, in my cat lover's opinion,  my Dog, Pippin, is still the best there is. Why? Because he's my dog. and I love him as much as I love Chance the shelter dog.

The picture above is my dog, Pippin. Behind him is Olga. my cousins' dog. I love my Pippin. Thoough I don't show it enough.

It must be strange, having a cat lover talk about dogs in such a positive light. I guess you can say I learned something  new. I now appreciate ALL animals.

I'm gonna continue my work with PAWS. I really enjoy it. I still love cats though....

that's my cat Freddy. He lost an eye. We don't know how. He just came home one night with his right eye bulging out. We took him to the vet. He's now a happy cyclops cat. But we love him just the same.

May Joke Ako...

Hindi ako makapagfocus. Ang dami tumatakbo sa isipan ko. Mga alaala natin, pati na din ang muka mo.

Ineexplain ni Prof ang SMCR+E model. wala ako maintindihan. Walang pumapasok sa utak ko. Tila ba binara mo ang daan papunta sa aking isipan. bakit? kasi gusto mo ikaw lang laman nito. Pero syempre, joke ko lang yun. Ako lang naman may gusto eh.

Katabi kita. Naguusap tayo. Nagtatawanan tayo. Ngingitian mo ko. Ngingiti din ako. Sa mga sandaling iyon, pakiramdam ko walang masamang nangyare. Walang “break up” walang kahit ano. Na hindi nagbago pakikitungo natin sa isa’t isa. Pero syempre, joke lang yun.

Tapos na mga araw na sabay tayo pumasok. Tapos na mga araw na magdamag tayo magkausap. Tapos na din ang mga araw na ako ang iyong mahal. At sa paglisan mo, tangay mo pati kaligayahan ko. Tuwing naiisip ko ang mga ito, napapangiti ako. Dahil kapag hindi, baka maluha ako. Wish ko lang, joke to.

Ano ba meron sayo at nabihag mo ang kawawa kong damdamin? Hindi ka malimot. pag gising sa umaga, Ikaw pa din una ko naiisip. Una ko lagi naaalala yung araw na hinalikan mo ako, at binulong sa tenga ko, “happy birthday.” Ang dami pa, pero baka abutin tayo ng siyam siyam pag sinabi ko lahat.

Alam mo ba? jinojoke ko sarili ko. Lagi ko sinasabi na okay na tayo. na okay na ako. na hindi na kita kailangan. Pero tulad nga ng sabi ko, joke yun. Miss na miss na miss na miss pa rin kita, kahit six months na ang nakalipas. Hanggang kailan mo ba balak ibihag ang puso ko?

Mahal pa din kita. Pero wala na. Kaya ngingiti na lang ako everytime na ngingitian mo ako. tatawa ako sa bawat joke mo. At susubukan ko kalimutan ka. Kahit na alam ko, na isang malaking joke yun.

The Nerd in Me

Since I'm a failure with most things, I have turned my attention to my hobbies. Earlier last month, I have posted here that I would revive my old PlayStationPortable1000 (PSP1000).

And a few weeks ago, I bought a brand new battery pack for it which cost me 500 pesos. and now I got it upgraded. it is now a PSP1000 with the personality of a PSP2000. I don't have it yet though. It's with my buddy Harold. He got me a pretty sweet discount. the upgrading usually cost aroung 450. I got mine upgraded for 250. Thank you Harold's friend!

So yeah, I'm pretty psyched about seeing my baby tomorrow. But for now, I'm still playing my Nintendo Gameboy Advance SP. Thank You Master Panda for lending me Pokemon Sapphire Version. I personally would've liked Emerald Version better because the Pokemon there moved. It is also the first Pokemon for the Gameboy with moving Pokemon. And in case you're wondering, yes. I did finish both games before back in High School.

After the upgrade, I plan on getting the UMD reader fixed. Harold said it would cost me 400 with his friend, or I can try fixing it on my own with a blank UMD. Let me explain.

The UMD reader of my PSP is broken. When I turn on the system, it automatically tries to find a game in the UMD slot, even if the auto scan is turned off in the settings. Unnerved, Harold got it checked out, and stated above was the diagnosis.

I plan to get my PSP 100% running before the end of this semester. But there's still a lot that needs to be done. The analog also needs to be checked out. I think that's another 500 easy. So yeah, I'm putting all my money into my baby. I love my PSP, PS2 and my GameBoy Advance SP. My sister said she MIGHT get me a PS Vita. A PS Vita!!! can you believe it?!?! I hope she wasn't kidding. I want one of those.

And no. I'm not a fan of gadgets, just video games. Handhelds are always a must have.

Well, I think I've bored you enough. Cheers! :)

Perfect World

In a Parallel Universe, I am the exact opposite of me. (duh) So in some far off universe, I'm not a socially awkward nineteen year old.  I wonder how that must feel? To not be a loser and to have good eye sight.... These things will forever be a dream to me in this universe.

Anyway, in that said universe, I shall be the smartest in class. I would have chosen to go to that Science High School instead of a normal one. I would be in love and happy. I would have won academic awards for excellence. and in that Universe, she would not have left.....

I'm sorry. Anyway, In that parallel universe there would be no need for my pretend smiles because I would be happy. In truth, I can't imagine myself incredibly happy.

But whatever. I'm happy.... when I'm in playing video games anyway. hahaha. You're right. there I go again. pitying myself for things that are my own doing. bah! I'm pathetic. So yeah, what wouldn't I give to see that parallel universe me...

That parallel universe would be my perfect world. And maybe, just maybe... I'll be born there on my second life. and everything I didn't have in this world, I'll have there... 

I can't wait. What if...... naaahh.. That is NEVER an option.... I'll get there when God decides it's time. But till that faithful day comes, I'm on my own in this crappy world.

To those kids out there who just want a "perfect world" of their own, It'll come. We just have to wait.... cheers! and let's just try to stay alive. If not for us, but for the ones we love..

Cigarette Thoughts

I sit in the dark, my cigarette, the only light. I watch the smoke climb to heaven. Lucky bastards.

I take a puff. the smoke fills me. the taste of menthol rich in my mouth. After a few seconds, I let it all out. I close my eyes and think of the past events.... Events I wish never happened. Events I wish I never witnessed.

What's wrong you ask? It's nothing really. Nothing a cigarette can't help. But then again, this is my 3rd stick. Oh well. Atleast I'm feeling better.

I don't really have anything informative to say. I'm just.... I don't know... I'm confused I guess. I can't make great posts like the other people here on blogger. I'm just a kid. I just write what's in my head. And right now, the problem is that, my head's a mess. and so my thoughts are as well. I'm a loser.

I realized this. I'm a failure with love, a failure with my friends, and a failure for all eternity. I can't do anything right. I suck. Yes. you're right. this is self pity. I pity myself. But i only do this when I'm talking to you. Hundreds of faceless people. People who don't know me, people who have never seen my face, People who don't give a damn about this nineteen year old.

With all these thoughts coursing through my smoke filled head, I take another puff. I hold it in longer than the last time. I tried, and failed to stop the tear falling. Even the smoke couldn't stop it.

What was I doing with my life? Am I sick of it? am I tired? Yes. Yes I am. I'm tired of always hurting. But am I doing anything about it? No. That's why I'm miserable. You're going to suck if you don't freakin' move where you are! You're gonna stay in place? You're just gonna be like a tree. A tree that when a huge freakin storm hits will be uprooted and killed. That's what's gonna happen to you! you're gonna get killed. I doubt you wanna get killed, so move. Move your ass!

You want to date someone? Go for it! You Hate someone? Say it to their faces! You hate the system of your college? Fight! It's that simple. I know that it's easier said than done. Everything is. But once you get moving, there's no stopping you. So if I were you, I'd grab my baseball bat and knock some heads off!! 

C'mon reader! Let's freakin' do this!

With that last thought, and a resolved spirit, I put out my cigarette and wipe away the lone tear that escaped me...

cheers!