Things I learned in 2012

It's the last day of the year. It is a day of reflecting upon what has happened and what we have learned in the past 12 months. It is time to go back to some of the events that have taken place and are now things we wish not to remember.

My year? It was a good one. I learned and lost things along the way. Experiences. I had a lot of those. Laughter? countless. It made up for the depression I felt earlier this year. Let's see...

1. They don't really mean what they say. Friends will say that they will always be there for you and give you support in your time of need. False. At the end of the day, all you have is yourself. I let someone down this year. Every night it still haunts me. Their anger, it paralyzes me. Just the thought of it. I am ashamed to have let that person down. I am ashamed of myself...

2. Helping is good. This year, I did volunteer work for the Philippine Animal Welfare Society (PAWS), But because of school works eating up my free day, I had to quit without finishing the six months I promised them. And today, I am too ashamed to show my face in the office again....

3. Family is Everything. This year, I became closer to my cousins. I learned that they can be my family, and my best friends at the same time. I love them and I am thanking God I have them in my life.

4. You will receive if you ask. There's a saying, "If you don't ask, the answer will always be No." This is true. I learned that if you never speak up, you will never receive more.

5. Don't be afraid to love. I have recognized a pattern in my life. If the year is odd, I am in love. If the year is even, I am always depressed/ heart broken. i.e. 2005: <3, 2006: </3, 2007: <3, 2008: </3, 2009 <3, 2010 </3, 2011 <3, 2012 </3, 2013: ?  I don't know yet what the following year holds for me. But I'm ready to love again. I just hope I'm making the right choice. I want my 2014 as well as my 2013 to be a happy one.

There will be a part two. But that would be the high lights. I don't want to make it too long so you won't get bored reading. Well, till next time!