High lights

I thought about it... what are the best times of my 2012? well, It's hard if I mash them all up together, so I'm just going to say what was the best part of each month starting in January of 2012. mwahaha.

• January- We had to do this travel magazine for one of our classes. We were assigned in Marikina. It was my first time exploring Marikina. It was a lot of walking on our part, but the enjoyment and memories were something to be remembered.

• February- I stayed up till 4am, drawing covers and writing letters for the CD's I burned for my friends for Valentines day. All the exhaustion and hand cramps were worth it, just seeing that they appreciated what I did for them. 

• March- I experienced luck like no other. I was Withdrawn from a class, and my prof, for some unknown reason to me, changed my grade and I didn't need to repeat the class. Pure luck indeed!

•  April- I started volunteer work for PAWS. I was with a lot of dogs and cats and I learned that abuse to animals was all around. All the animals in the shelter were the lucky ones. 

• May- I got my cat spayed. She was the first one. She is not going to have babies anymore. It was a strange experience, seeing a cat go under the knife like that...

•  June- Tried to restore my PSP1000. I put in 500php for the battery, 500 for a repair that did nothing, and another 300 for the upgrade. a total of..... 1,300.

• July- Watched a Taekwondo thing for this Sports Magazine we did. It was my first time, also I was the one who arranged for our group to go to the said event. Sooo.... I learned a bit of responsibility along the way.

• August- It rained for three days in Metro Manila, flooding barangays and killing dogs and cats! Also people. There was no storm, just... "Habagat". I also Failed a quiz in statistics that crushed my self esteem and confidence.

• September- I ended my teenage years.

• October- I passed Statistics. Not with flying colors, but I passed. 

• November- spent a night in a hotel with my friends. Friggin' EPIC! and after only two hours of sleep, went to MOA to see a car show. I've never seen such big cars! 

• December- Sold my PSP1000 because I obtained a PSP2000. I also sold my Samsung Corby II and bought a Samsung Galaxy Pocket.. I am very happy.

I can't really say that it's been a terrible year. In fact, I think it was a good one. But I'm hoping and praying that 2013 to be a better year.

And I don't buy that fortune telling crap. You make your own fortune by the choices YOU make, not by some cookie or anything!

The future is in our hands. Let's make sure that the coming year will be a good one for all of us.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Bata, Bata...

bata, bata, nanlilimos sa kalye,
Hindi ka ba takot mahagip ng kotse?
Sama ka sakin, dun tayo sa eskwela,
Nang buhay mo ay magkaroon ng kwenta.

bata, bata, nagugutom sa daan,
Halika at tinapay, aking bibigyan.
tara at sama tayo magsikap,
Bagong buhay na makikita sa pangarap. 

bata, bata, hawak ang diploma.
Nakapagtapos ka, at ngayo'y iba na.
Pangarap nakamit, kay sarap ng pakiramdam.
Ngayon ang hirap, ay sa nakaraan na lamang.

Things I learned in 2012

It's the last day of the year. It is a day of reflecting upon what has happened and what we have learned in the past 12 months. It is time to go back to some of the events that have taken place and are now things we wish not to remember.

My year? It was a good one. I learned and lost things along the way. Experiences. I had a lot of those. Laughter? countless. It made up for the depression I felt earlier this year. Let's see...

1. They don't really mean what they say. Friends will say that they will always be there for you and give you support in your time of need. False. At the end of the day, all you have is yourself. I let someone down this year. Every night it still haunts me. Their anger, it paralyzes me. Just the thought of it. I am ashamed to have let that person down. I am ashamed of myself...

2. Helping is good. This year, I did volunteer work for the Philippine Animal Welfare Society (PAWS), But because of school works eating up my free day, I had to quit without finishing the six months I promised them. And today, I am too ashamed to show my face in the office again....

3. Family is Everything. This year, I became closer to my cousins. I learned that they can be my family, and my best friends at the same time. I love them and I am thanking God I have them in my life.

4. You will receive if you ask. There's a saying, "If you don't ask, the answer will always be No." This is true. I learned that if you never speak up, you will never receive more.

5. Don't be afraid to love. I have recognized a pattern in my life. If the year is odd, I am in love. If the year is even, I am always depressed/ heart broken. i.e. 2005: <3, 2006: </3, 2007: <3, 2008: </3, 2009 <3, 2010 </3, 2011 <3, 2012 </3, 2013: ?  I don't know yet what the following year holds for me. But I'm ready to love again. I just hope I'm making the right choice. I want my 2014 as well as my 2013 to be a happy one.

There will be a part two. But that would be the high lights. I don't want to make it too long so you won't get bored reading. Well, till next time!

WANTED: New PC!

Our PC is functioning pretty shitty. I don't understand why. I'm pretty sure there's nothing wrong with the software. But the hardware seems to be going to hell.

I'm gonna look for a job. That's gonna be my goal for 2013. A job that pays so I can make enough money to get upgrades or a new PC all together. This thing is starting to become a burden to me. I almost feel like owning a laptop is better. It's low maintenance, plus it doesn't take too long to clean unlike a desktop.

Our neighbor is selling a complete PC unit for 5k.

*As I was typing this the computer froze up! agh! this is exactly what I mean!

This is why I want a new PC. This thing is almost six years old. The processor's slow compared to the newer ones. But until the day comes that I am independent, I have to make do with this.

The Holidays aren't over yet. You can still give me a desktop or a functioning laptop. hihihihihi.

It's Friday?

I have to be honest with you. I've lost track of the days. I was really surprised to learn that it was Friday. I thought that it was only Wednesday.

That means there are only a few days left until the new year is upon us! But the work for this year is still piled high. Oh well. I'm still not in the mood to make articles. I mean, business articles dude! I have to deal with it I guess. But I don't really want to.

Anyway, I have nothing better to say except that I finally have my phone.

cheers!

Back to Work

Don't you just hate the feeling of having to go back to work after a long rest? I certainly do. But then again, without the work, you will never appreciate a long deserved rest.

Christmas is over, and New Year isn't until next week. Which means, work needs to be done. Those articles aren't going to write themselves after all. But sometimes I wish they did.

anyway, it looks like I'm never meeting my personal quota for posts this month. I just have nothing else to write about. Sucks. And I don't really want to post school articles here. Or maybe I will... hmm...

That reminds me. the End of Year Post! A summary of all the highlights this year. Hopefully, I'll post it on the last fay of the Year. As I always do. I need to start making the list I guess..

But not now. I have to finish writing an article. Cheers! and i hope you guys had a merry christmas.

SOLD!

Can you tell that I missed blogging? Perhaps. or perhaps not. Anyway, I am happy to say that I sold my old PSP, the pink one just yesterday. I wanted to sell if for 1000 pesos. But since it was broken and I didn't include the charger and memory stick, I was able to sell it for 700.

Honestly, I felt like a customer in Pawn Stars. haggling with the store person at Sta. Lucia Mall. I'm still happy that I was able to sell it though. Apart from my old PSP, I also sold my Cellphone. The Yellow Corby II. I am now currently using my old phone from High school. My trusty Nokia 2630.

Though I have to admit I miss the wifi, It's all for the best because I'm getting a new phone with the money I made from selling the phone and the PSP.

I'm thinking about getting an android phone. I'm just not sure which Android phone. Oh well. I'll cross that bridge when I get there.

Merry Christmas, You Bastards.

Okay, look. In the beginning of the month, I kinda promised myself I'd make as many posts as there are days in the calendar. But since the PC broke down, I couldn't do  that. and so, like Christmas Shoppers, I am rushing to meet my personal quota. Whether or not I'll be able to meet the quota, I'll soon find out.

Anyway, I don't like traditional Christmas songs as much as I'd like to admit, but here's my favorite one. Well, it's not traditional, but enjoy it anyways. hahaha.

Blink 182 lives on! \m/

Christmas

Waking up at six AM to Christmas tunes from the neighbor's stereo. You try to fall back asleep, but the music is stronger than your will to rest.

You get up, feel the morning breeze through the open window and suddenly realize that it's the 24th. The glorious day of enemies pretending to like you and family get togethers are here.

And yet, you feel empty inside as if something is missing. You take your bike out and ride around the barangay. You see people getting out and setting up for parties and some making their way to grocery stores and malls for last minute shopping.

You turn the corner and see people laughing and talking as more Christmas tunes fill the air. Somehow, it brings a smile to your face. Christmas. that time of year where everyone forgets their differences and just enjoy themselves.

You ride back home to find your mom telling you to get dressed and that you have to go to market. You comply and fight through the people who are on the same mission as you. Christmas. that time of year where everyone is happy even though they are rushing to get things done, which usually pisses them off.

You return home. tired but fulfilled, yet still the feeling of emptiness lingers within. You receive a call. Your friend calls to wish you and your family a Merry Christmas. You then see messages wishing you the same from several friends and family. You then realize that Christmas is about love and peace. Your emptiness is filled and you are happy. Christmas. That time of year where everyone shares their love to everyone else.

MERRY CHRISTMAS READERS!  :D

See The World

I remember... Not being able to see anything on the chalk board and having to squint. I never really thought anything was wrong with me.

Until I started failing classes. My mom got so mad. I told her about not being able to see the board. She took me to the optometrist the same night. the doctor had me try some weird device thing. Where she puts lenses with certain grades. When she popped the first one in the device, my initial reaction was "WOAH! EVERYTHING IS SO CLEAR!!"

Before that moment, I never really believed I needed glasses. And ever since I was eleven. I have carried the burden on my face which everyone calls, "glasses". True. there are perks to wearing glasses. You look smarter than you really are, and people with glasses have this aura of niceness. Or maybe that's just me.

Anyway, I like my glasses better than some dangerous piece of plastic that I have to insert into my eye threatening my capability of sight.

The only reason I'm telling you all of this is because I got new glasses yesterday and I am very pleased with myself. hihihi.

The Return

Due to the apocalypse, and me dying, I had no time to make blog posts for my dear readers... loljk. Our PC broke down and my cousin just came over and fixed it. yehay! Just in time for Christmas too.

I can't stay long though. my dad's waiting to use the PC, sooo.... I'll be blogging longer stuff tomorrow. Ideas are stocked up in my head. I hope I haven't forgotten some of my great ideas.

Goodnight!

To Whom it may Concern

She walks aimlessly through the streets, lost in the world of music and ignoring the stares from strangers she might see again in her dreams…
A world crushed like a dropped egg, a soul torn and fallen, she lost the will to live and is just walking where the road leads her.
 
Friends that are gone when the rain comes are no help. Her father that beats her and a mother who could care less helps not in mending her spirit. She cries at night and prays for a better tomorrow. Angels listen, but don’t mind.

Left by the boy who promised her forever, she made her choice to end it all.
Without knowing how, without knowing why, she found herself on top of a building. She positions herself on the edge. The wind was strong and threatened to push her. She looked below at the street lights glowing like fireflies in the night. She closed her eyes and listened to the last song she’ll ever listen to.

Standing up, she looked below again and remembered all the bad in her life. And as if on cue, the wind pushed her and she was falling. As she dived to the street, she suddenly remembered all the good times she had. The laughter and the smiles she has not thought of in years. She suddenly changed her mind and wanted to live. But it was too late.

As she prepared to die, she uttered a short prayer, apologies were said and she hoped to see God. And as she was about to hit the ground, she slowed down as if someone had her. She heard a flutter of wings. and looked behind her to see an angel with wings holding her and guiding her to the ground.

Once she was safe, she looked again to thank the angel, but he was gone. And on that day, she vowed to be better…. She thanked God and the stars for heeding her prayers. She was happy to be alive.

End of year Post

Wow, it's already December. It seems like only yesterday summer was coming. And now, 2013 is on it's way and it will almost be time to say Goodbye to College and Hello to our real lives. A lot sure has happened... some awesome.. some not so awesome... but all in all, We thank God for the year of friendship and laughter and tears. And now.... for the real reason for this post....

Every year, at the last day of December, I post my "End of Year" Post. This year won't be any different. If I were to live past December 21, (Which I hope so) I'll post some of the things I learned and experienced that are unforgettable this 2012.

Uhhmm.. I'm actually going to start already. I want it to be the best post all year. This is just an advancer. Just wait for it. I'm going to try to include pictures this year just to make it a little different.

You should totally make one too. It's a lot of fun. Enjoy your Holidays! We only have a week left before school's out for Christmas Break. woohoo! :D

Skeletons in the Closet

All my life I have been hearing this phrase, but I never really understood what it meant. And as they say, when in doubt, ask Google! And so I did, I learned that it's an event or something from your past that you buried and is keeping a secret and it would cause shame and humiliation if ever brought out.

And so I thought about my life so far... Do I have skeletons in the closet? yes. You probably do too. In my opinion, everyone has them. Some just hide it better than others.....

What can be considered as a skeleton for your closet? well, at some point in our lives, we were not ourselves. I mean, we were a different person. Everyone always says that our past selves isn't usually the same one in the present. I believe this. Once upon a time, I was a jejemon who didn't seem to know how to spell things. But look at me today. I'm a Journalism student who frowns upon my former kind. It is always shameful whenever someone brings up this fact. and for the benefit of my College Life and Friends, It should remain a secret.... which of course is now out because of this blogpost.... *sigh*

Anyway, It can be something as simple as that, or as worse as having killed eight puppies in your youth. Which, by the way, is frowned upon by society.

In my own opinion, if someone loves you today, they won't care about what you did in the past. You're not that person anymore. And if they really love you, they'll stay no matter what. Just as long as you prove to them that you've changed as well. Don't give them a reason to suspect you're the same from your past.

Leave the past where it belongs and go and make a future as bright as the sun! Everyone deserves a second chance.



(P.S. I wanted to put pictures from Google here... But I was too lazy. :3)

Curiousity and Children

When we're children, we are naturally curious on how our world around us functions. and we tend to experiment and do things to satisfy our thirst for knowledge. But sometimes, these childhood experiments, as we look make us hang our head in shame and say.. "Oh, God Why". I am no exception. the following are things I did to satisfy my curiosity when I was growing up....

1. Breath freshener. I watched a lot of cartoons as a kid. I always see the characters spraying some cologne in to their mouths to make their breath fresher. Then I saw, up on my mom's dresser, a similar bottle. The bottle she uses not to spray her breath, but her body before she goes out to work everyday. I didn't think there was a difference between the one you put in your mouth and the one you put on your body to smell nice. So I sprayed the cologne into my mouth. It was a very horrible taste where I ran to the bathroom to wash my mouth out. It smelled nice. But it didn't taste nice...

2. Fruity Soap. When I was a kid, a soap company released a new scent of their soap which they called "tutti frutti". I have to admit that my baths were more fun because of this soap. It smelled nice and fruity. Like my favorite candy. And then i thought, maybe it was made from my favorite candy. And so without thinking, I took a bit on the soap. Like the cologne, it smelled nice but tasted horrible! Once again, I washed my mouth out...

3. The Parachute. Television had a great influence on me. I copied them once again after seeing a cartoon where the character uses an umbrella to parachute to safety. And so, I took my small umbrella, stood on top of the bunk bed, after making sure I was going to land on the bean bag on the bottom, I jumped and popped open the umbrella. I wasn't sure on its effect, so I tried it a few more times. I have to admit it was kinda fun. I then tried it with a plastic bag.... The umbrella worked better.

4. Watercolor. Okay this is disgusting. And this wasn't even an experiment by me. It was a prank played on me by my cousin. He told me the brown liquid in the cup was cold Milo. Not even bothering to smell it, I gulped it down. It was incredibly horrible. And this is the reason I always smell the food before I eat any of it.

Well, I have to admit, the things I did were really weird.... oh well..... at least my childhood made a bit of sense. I think I did more stuff. I just can't remember them all.

For You

a few days ago my friend turned eighteen. She is the youngest in our class, and the most special person to me. It's always a big deal when it's about her... Well, for me anyway.

I wrote her a poem. But being who I am, accidentally left it at
 home. Why? because I was writing it the night before her birthday and I woke up late the following morning. In my rush, I left it on my desk. bummer. But I promised to post it. and here it is. I love you Jinni. :)

Just when I thought things were getting bad,

Entered you in my life, smiling your comforting smile.

Never did I think I'd need you like I do.

1st year College. Still my favorite photo. :)

I fell in love with your hugs and the kindness you showed.

Not once did I wish for us to grow apart. 

After a while we did, but we found each other again.

Let's hope we don't drift apart again.

And pray to God that we'll love each other still.

Really I'm sorry for the times I made you feel bad.

And for the times I wasn't there.

To you I can't promise to always be by your side.

And to promise such would be foolish of me.

You will be my friend I hope till the end.

And I love you, I promise. with all my heart.

Our time is up, and this poem has come to an end.

I hope you liked it. I think it would have been better if you heard it on your birthday though. oh well. I love you jinni. :)

After Midnight

"I can't get my feet up off the edge.... I kinda like the little rush you get, when you're standing close to death..."

I started singing this song, then you started singing with me... "Like when you're driving me crazy. Hold on as we crash into the earth... a bit of pain will help you suffer when you hurt, for real... cause you were driving me crazy..."

The cold morning air blew my face. It felt nice...   "bite your lips, your words a robbery..." I realized, this was the first time we were together. Just talking.... "do you grin inside you're killing me.... All along we talked of forever..."  This is a great night... "I kinda think that we won't get better..."

The street lights sparkled like grounded stars. Our friends slept soundly, an occasional snore was heard every now and then.

"It's the longest start but the end's not too far away..." Let's just stay this way for a while longer.... "did you know, I'm here to stay..."

"we'll stagger home after midnight! Sleep arm in arm in the stairwell, we'll fall apart on the weekend! These nights go on and on..."

We both feel the satisfaction from the song. I was grinning inside. I don't usually like the night. For they plagued me with bad dreams... But tonight.... it was an exception. Not only was I spared from the terrors, but I was with you. I got my only wish... to spend a night with you...

We talked about a lot of things... and an hour before the sun threatened to reappear, you disappear. And after you walked out the door, my night ended. Sleep didn't come. I stayed awake until the sun appeared on the east. As people were waking up and getting ready to start the day, I sat on the balcony, reliving our conversation and how we both promised to remember the sight of everything that night.

As I got ready to disappear myself. I smile and took the sight in for the last time...  For we won't be back again....